Melzie's Monologue: I miss blogging :(

Why don't I blog anymore? I love going back and re-reading the posts from years ago. I think it's partially a heightened awareness of what goes on the internet STAYS on the internet, and just a convenience issue, facebook is so much more immediate. It's been since last Sept. since I blogged. I can't remember what has gone on since then. We had a great Christmas..This year is flying by. Only about 4 more weeks til school starts back. My little man is going to headstart (preschool) this fall. I am devastated. I like all my kids HOME with me. I don't want him to go. He's been accepted to both headstart AND pre-k but that is too much. For him, for me. He'll thrive I think in headstart. He's been a stay at home kid for 4.5 yrs, but he's a socialite :) he loves to play with kids. He's become a LOT more socially aware this past few months, so I think he'll do fine. He has something called Sensory Processing Disorder, and probable ADHD, and possible Non Verbal Learning Disorder. This ALL causes him to basically be a wiggle worm. That will be the hardest part for him. Oh he's also very red dye sensitive, so that will be a thing.

I have been dreading this new chapter in life. Almost all my boys are about 5+ yrs apart, because when they go to school and I have an empty nest, I start thinking of just one more baby lol. But my 40th birthday is in a bit, hubby has had his 50th birthday last year, time to let those baby bearing years go. Sad to see them end, not that I want another baby, but that empty nest will be so quiet during the day.

I am hopeful that thru much prayer I will find the direction I am meant to go in now, whether it be stay at home wife/mother, going to work, or going to school. My oldest still at home just turned 18 last month, he's going to be a senior. My middle son at home is going into Jr. High this fall. So many milestones, life is flying by me and I am trying to put on the brakes and slow it down. As Dr. Phil says "how's that workin for ya?" Not so well :)