Growing Pains

Hebrews 12:11 No discipline seems enjoyable at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it yields the fruit of peace  and righteousness to those who have been trained by it

 

 Ever had growing pains? Boy I had some this weekend.  We are in total transition in our church.  Again.  We've went to this church for 2 years. Had two preacher and are beginning the "shopping" process over again.  I don't like it.  It makes church seem like a chore, a to-do item to check off.  I start to miss the bread and the living water and the peace and the refilling of my spiritual tank.  I suggested and Hubby agreed to go to *my church* this Sun. a.m.  (background, we have gone to *my church* for most of our married life, until Hubby felt God calling him back to *his church* 2 yrs ago, being a good dutiful wife (ha) I kicked and screamed my way down there with him, but I miss my church family TREMENDOUSLY especially times like now).  We went, took our family (4 boys) and took our youth kids (9 kids) and crashed their Sun. school and morning service :)  It was amazing.  The Sun. school lesson was EXACTLY what I had been reading all week (Hebrews), the sermon given during worship was spot on!  The singing, the organization, the teachers, I was like a little flower basking in the morning sunlight.  I was secretly praying the whole time, please let Hubby feel this too, please let him announce "we have to go back!"  He enjoyed it, the Sun. school lesson was spot on for him he said.  But he enjoyed it for what it was, a visit.  

WELL, let me tell you what my Sun. school lesson was about.  Doing what is right even when you don't want to.  Doing the unselfish thing, to be in God's will.  GRRR God!  I want MY WAY, I want MY church! I want my friends! (sheesh Melody we went through this 2 yrs ago why are we rehashing it?  Because God, I don't want to do this shopping for a pastor again!  And God, no one helps us, I am tired of being the only one to do the kids, nursery, youth.  I'm tired, I need fed, I need friends, I need fellowship!)

So I cried so much to Hubby that he said you know what you go wherever you feel you should be, because I can't make you go with me, you'll just resent me.  Then he had to go help his parents install a new a/c and I washed the dishes and *listened* to God instead of talking, crying, having a fit.  And He told me exactly what I knew He would.  That my place was with my husband.  That this is where He has me for now.  That it's not forever, but it is for good, for benefit, for profit, for my best interest.  But God I want MY WAY.  But no I do want your way God, I want your blessing, and if I got my way I still wouldn't be happy, I'd be out of your will and that is no place I really want to be.  So God and I came to agreement.  So Danny came home and said look, I think God wants you to do His work, not your will. I said yeah yeah God already told me LOL Doesn't mean I have to like it. 

Then our guest preacher last night, preached on doing God's will not what your flesh wants (LOL three times in one day God?  Do you think I'm hardheaded or something??  Don't answer that God) and I let it go.  And now I have peace.  Growing pains, but peace.  And I'd rather have peace from God than anyone, or anything.  I wanted to share this today to maybe speak the Word to someone else who might need this today.  :) xoxo melzie