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Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Total whine and pout post skip if you want

This is the worst day and yet for no good reason. Its muddy out so John cant go out, had a huge fight with my dh (not dear) last night. I am trying so hard not to be depressed but its hard, I am treading water sinking fast. I am also on night 3 of total insomnia, I get about 3 hrs of unsettled sleep. That goes along with my depression. Its like my own body is out of my control. I hate it. I dont know what to do to fight it I just want to give up and say ok whatever its not worth it but I dont want to lose all that time again from it. UGH I NEED my dh to help me I need my kids to go just a few hours with out the fighting and bickering. I need the bill collectors to lose my # for one day please just one day. I am tired. I got rid of my dog, to the best family ever. He is so much happier now and so am I. And the kids never wanted to mess with him or help with him, but now they rag on me to make me feel guilty for getting rid of him.

Blah blah blah blah whine pout whine nag etc etc etc. melzie

ps thanks for all the nice comments about my not feeling good and yes I do feel tons better. :) ::small smile for my bloggy friends::

15 comments:

Jeanne said...

{{{Hugs}}}
Wish we could just sit and have a cup of tea or a glass of wine together.
Jeanne

computerpeach said...

take the phone off the hook and go fondle some fabric - that always makes me feel better. hopefully the insomnia will go away soon and you can dream nice quilty dreams.

Anonymous said...

A. ignore the phone
B. if the dog made you unhappy - it is better that the dog is elsewhere - you have enough on your plate. The kids will get over it...
C. no more caffeine at all (no chocolate, tea, coffee, coke)
D. on the cusp of depression over here too...

Suze said...

Insomnia is the awful. Makes everything seem worse than it is........

Perhaps tonight will give you some rest and tomorrow will be better.

lrlwreath said...

Oh honey yesterday I was right there with you. Can you take a bath or do something for yourself after the kids go to bed. Just something little to make you feel good.

Hang in there, I promise tomorrow is a new day. (((( hugs )))))

RANDI said...

Hi sweetie,

Big hugs for you! I wish I could do something a little more practical, but I can pray for you. Hang in there and don't let Satan have this one. God is faithful and able to handle this in your life!

RANDI said...

Oh BTW,

Have you tried drinking some chamomile tea or valerian root tea before bed for your insomnia? You can find it at the health food store and, believe it or not, it really works!

May Britt said...

A big hug from Norway to you. Some days everything feels really bad, but remember all the good things. Take a day off and just do something nice to yourself. Go for a walk, take a warm bath, look at your fabrics, a glass of wine, candelights aso .....

Hugs from me

Clare said...

Take the phone off the hook and give yourself some time out. Run a hot bath, grab a book and a glass of wine and just relax!

Don't do anything for anyone else. You need some time to yourself and the others will have to cope without you for a bit. Sounds to me as if you are a giver, so stop giving and do a bit of taking!

It will get better. Hugs

No_Newz said...

I'm sorry you are having a craptastic time sweetie. Email me your phone number if you ever need an ear.

Pam said...

I hope you feel better really soon. Sometimes just the everyday trials of life can get so overwhelming. All your blogs friends can send you a big cyber hug and listen when you need an ear to bend. My motto is Never feel guilty.

Swampwitch said...

((Hug)) ((Hug)) (( Hug))

Jackie said...

Take the phone off the hook, and take a nice quiet bath.
Believe me, I know just how you are feeling......and it DOES GET BETTER! (Drugs help me....but not for all)

Love and Hugs,
Jackie

shannon said...

((((melzie))))im so sorry,,,i will keep u in my thoughts & prayers,,i actually went to the dr yesterday for the issues im having=/ just remember what an amazing, giving, loving person u are & how special u are to sooooo many people...xoxoxoxoxo

Cynthia said...

i hope things will get better for you. ((hugs))