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If you have built castles in the air, your work need not be lost; there is where they should be.
Now put foundations under them.

Henry David Thoreau

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

realistic whinefest

Its rainy and gloomy here today, fits my mood fine. I am miserable. Inside, outside, up and down. Physically, emotionally. MIS-ER-AB-LE. I knew its not much longer...Its just getting soooo hard. I cry all the time, my house is falling apart very fast now that I have slowed down physically. I'm starting to have anxiety about labor/birth/problems. I try to keep that at bay because my mind is my own worse enemy. I have contrax constantly. I go to the dr. next tues. (stupid nurse pract.) then 2 wks after that is my u/s. I am thoroughly convinced he is breech, and if he doesn't move in the next week or so I'm sooo screwed. Everything I eat lately makes me so sick. Every night at bedtime I've been getting HORRIBLE HORRIBLE stomach pain, (gas seems like) has to work its way down to the bottom of the sea overnight. Can't sleep, can't eat, can't clean, my computer is so twitchy and glitchy and I can't find all my restore disks. My belly had a HUGE growth spurt this week, its scary looking now. I outgrew all my maternity clothes from my last pregnancy weeks ago. I have one pair of jeans that fit and two pair of size 4x frumpy sweats. That's IT. Kmart stopped carrying maternity clothes, Target's size 2x stuff is about like a size L in reality. I cried in town the other night with the realization of making due with 1 pr of pants to wear in public for the next 6 wks. To console myself I bought the cutest little snowsuit type thing at Target that looks like a brown bear. (for baby not me lol). I'm SUPER paranoid about flu germs...that occupies my mind as well.

Well if you read this far bless your heart. Sorry for the whinefest.

xoxo melzie

3 comments:

One Christian Mom said...

I am so sorry you feel this way! {{HUGS}} I wish I could do more than that - but I will pray :-) Feel better, mama!
Shellie

Magpie Sue said...

Holy cow, you're having a baby too! (Aren't you glad it's only one?! Just think how big you'd be if there were two of them in there!!!) Congratulations, and you're allowed to whine ;- )
I can't believe Kmart isn't carrying maternity clothes - what's up with that?
Thanks for stopping by my blog and leaving a comment. I hope you can find some joy in your days. Is there someone who could/would come over to help you get the house in better shape? That might go a long way to making you feel better. One of the hardest lessons we have to learn in this life is to ask for help (and not just from God!) and let others reap the blessings of service. Hang in there Mama!

Michele's Quilting Journey said...

You can do this, Melzie...it's almost time! You just have raging hormones...yours, theirs, and everybody's!